letdown

supposedly today was meant to be a celebration for all teachers in my school. but what a letdown!!!! only a handful of teachers turned up and guess what? these are the same ol' faces who attended this kind of 'sukaneka' or sporting events. the rest of them couldn't careless or in their own remark - ' I tak kuasa' or 'I tak minat' or 'I malas'. so, you think the rest of us are so enthusiastic to burn our faces in the hot sun!!!! at the very least please turn up as a show of respect to the organizers i.e. your own colleagues and your very own students. a show of appreciation is always accepted with an open heart.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!!!!!

beyond comprehension

i am speechless. i feel that some people have all the time in the world to butt in on people's life. please if you are so free, get a life. go and read something or learn new things that are going to be beneficial to you. don't spend your time, talking about things that do not concern you. as one unisel lecturer said 'when you assume, you're making an ass out of you and me'. if you are so keen to know, come and talk face to face. therefore, the ass will only be you. once again, get a life.

Bone Dry

I had been wrung to the bone. It had been one h*** of a week and still going to be a b***** this coming week. Fortunately, one of the major event in the EP was all done and completed with Iza doing most of the donkey job. Thank you, Iza. And the gratitude is extended to a few more like Aniqah, Widya and the prac teachers. Thank you so much.

Psychobabble

Pn. N from PPD G****k called and informed that there is a short course that will be held tomorrow. And it was already 2.30 p.m. and boohoo I had to go. I wondered how some people figured you can just drop a bombshell and just ignore the fact that other people have life!!! That I have a life. Hello, people have other obligations in life and I can't just say yes on the spot. I need to ask permission from my husband even though anything work related will be blessed by Ayang. What I am trying to say is that people need to learn some courtesy and if you expect people to respect you, respect them in turn. What had happen if I have three children, no maid and a demanding husband? Wouldn't it be a burden!!!!

To just relay the news without any other details as to what the course is all about is totally irresponsible and I am sure there will be tonnes of work waiting at B**** L*****. One thing I hate about this particular PPD is that if a course is to empower you in any way, you will not be called nor invited but if it is work related, hmmmnn bring it on. It would come without me asking nor thinking about it.

I just hope that I will have relatively enjoyable experience there. I am hoping for the best.

Alahai...

Due to the barrage of workload given to yours dearly, I am now attacked by the cold virus or whatever that is plaguing me now. I am sneezing, teary-eyed and having a mind-blowing headache.

Luckily for me, Ayang is willing to complete some of my work and doing a good job at it. Thanks, Ayang.

Meanwhile, I can relax and update the blog...ha ha ha.....

Thousand Apologies

Things have been hectic and chaotic this past few weeks at the workplace. We have been bombarded by accusations, misconceptions and whatnot. I have always tried to persevere in the face of adversity (ha ha ha...jangan nak berlakon, kau ada mengamuk, kan, kan???). But in the end as a human being you cannot not be hurt by the comments made by 'so-called friends'.

So, I would like to apologize to my panel members for the blunders that I have done and for being the KP who is way beyond inept and incompetent. Sob, sob, sob

SIGH!!!!

My life has taken such a turn that going to school no longer makes my heart swell with pride. It has in fact makes my heart looks like a withered prune, tinge with bitterness. I look forward to the holidays rather than the working days. How terrible!!!

I WANT TO BE THE TEACHER I USED TO BE. PLEASE, GRANT ME THIS WISH!!!!

Lesser and Lesser

I notice that my posts are dwindling gradually since I started in April. Didn't I promise myself to write more as I need the practice. The thing is I absolutely HATE writing. Even when I was in school and college, writing seemed to have escape from my grasp. I can't figure out the subject matter, nor the theme or whatever it is required to write. All I did most of the time is rambling nonsensically and expect my teachers or my lecturers to actually grade them and I expected excellent results. Hah, no such hope there. I even (in all my humility) flunked "Writing 101" in one semester and of course had to repeat the paper and to my horror with my juniors. Argghhh, how embarrassing and demeaning. Alas, I was rewarded for my diligence (*,) that time and procured an exalted B+ for my effort. However, I do have to share that with a few coursemates - Muhaida and Fathinie - who helped me tremendously. Thank you.

Turning back to the now, I must walk the walk. I have been nagging my students to be more diligent in their writing practice and yet here I am not making good of my own promise to keep on writing.

Well, folks, July would be the month of posts galore. God help me!!!!

Hanging by a Thin Thread

I am, in fact, is hanging by a really, really thin thread and at the end of my leash. These days I feel, no, actually I am being attacked left and right. Dodging the attacks seems to be out of the question. So, I just grin and bear with it. I do feel the hurt as rumours and accusations are flying every other way. Various persons come up to me with stories, some amusing, some entertaining and some downright malicious.

I should have been more confrontational and set the record straight as one colleague suggested but I just don't have the energy to expend and I am not interested to please people nor to rectify their assumptions. As long as I know, I have nothing to worry about my teaching and doing my job as best as I can. I COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THOUGHT ABOUT ME. There, I've said it.